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Dear Sizzie,
Wala akong paper, wala din printer ngayon dito sa office. So dito nalang. :)
So I don’t know if we’ll ever meet again since you’re flying na tomorrow to US. Ako din flying to somewhere na by the time na babalik ka. I just want to make a space for you here sa blog ko to tell you things I guess I’ve never told you before.
June of 2010 kita officially nameet. You were wearing your white and gray-striped jacket. First impression? Well, mataray haha. Second time kita nameet sa baba ng tower kasama ko ate mo, ganun parin. Di tayo naguusap. Yung third time palang tayo talaga nagusap. Napagkwentuhan natin yung paglipat mo sa FEU. Nalala mo? haha. Pero syempre mas nakilala kita nung nagkasama tayo sa apartment. Ate pa nga ang una mong tawag sakin. Sinabi ko ayokong tinatawag akong ate kaya sabi mo o sige sizzie nalang. Nung una lokohan lang hanggang yun na talaga pati name mo sa phone ko.
Sa apartment ko nalaman na si Madz pala talaga ay madaldal at mabait naman. Pero mataray parin… sa kapatid niya haha. Nakakatawa din moments natin dun e. Ang naalala ko ikaw pa una nagpapicture sa gift sakin na flowers at teddy bear. Isa pang memory ko dun yung nagshuffle ka ng songs. Bago mo basahin yung title ng song magtatanong ka muna like “Ano ang gustong gawin ni Esh ngayon?” then yung title ng song yung sagot. Super benta lang satin lahat yun. Nangyari pa yun bago tayo matulog.
Pero nakilala kita ng lubusan nung down na down ako nung October. Yung mga panahon na akala ko guguho na mundo ko. Pa,macho ka… trademark niyo ng magkakapatid yan pero nalaman ko na gusto mo pala talaga ako samahan kasi naiintindihan mo yung sakit ng puso ko noon. Ang dami nating moments lalo na from October to December. Sa mga panahong ito tunay kitang minahal as kaibigan.
Naalala mo pa ba yung moments natin na buong araw tayong nasa bahay. Wala tayong ginagawa. Minsan nakahiga lang, magkwekwentuhan then magtatanungan ng “San tayo kakain?” Lagi nating problema yan. Laging sagot naman ay Yakitate. Madalas, tawa tayo ng tawa pagnagagalit si ate mo pag nakakausap ka sa Skype. Paano naman wala kang ginawa kundi basagin siya. O kaya naman vinivideo natin o pinipicturan. Di ko mapigilan di tumawa ngayon. :)) Nagsusurf din tayo sa net all day. Di ko alam pano natin nagagawa yun na magsurvive na magnet lang ng magnet at maghanap ng nakakatawang videos sa YouTube. Sa ganon lang masaya na tayo.
Hinihintay din kita after school mo, lalo na yung mga kwento mo. The best ka magkwento in detail talaga. Parang nandun narin ako sa mga panahong nangyayari yun. Pati mga kaklase mo na di mo naman close nababanggit mo. Naalala ko pa nga yung nakakatawang classmate mo na sumasagot sa prof. yung babae.
Pero ang pinakagusto ko sayo e yung pagmay kinaiinisan ako nafefeel ko talaga na kinukuha mo yung kalahati ng pagkaBV ko. Bakit? Papaano naman te ang ending minsan mas BV ka pa sa tao kesa sa akin. Pati problema ko sa relationship noon, sayo ko na nasheshare kahit kapatid mo pa siya. Nakakatuwa talagang alalahanin.
Nung December 22, akala ko nawala na sa akin lahat ng ito. Alam mo naman na yung nangyari. Sinabi ko noon, di lang isang tao ang nawala sa akin, pati ikaw, at lahat ng mga mabubuting tao na napakilala mo sa akin. Pero mali ako, nasurpass natin yung challenge na yun. Ngayon eto tayo, parehas parin kung ano tayo noon. Di na tayo madalas magkasama sa kadahilanan na alam mo na pero pagnagkakausap tayo nagagawa mo parin akong maupdate sa lahat ng namiss ko sa buhay mo. Nakakaya kong makinig or magbasa ng pagkahaba haba kasi alam kong action/fun-packed ang kwento mo.
Sizzie, gusto ko ipagpasalamat sayo lahat. Lahat ng pagdamay mo sa saya at pag iyak ko. The best ka kasi di ko lahat to inask sayo. Kaya ganun ka kahalaga sakin kasi di ka man gumagamit ng words, napaparamdam mo naman yung pagaalaga mo sa mga kaibigan mo. Hindi ko ito sinasabi dahil aalis ka na. Matagal ko na ito gusto sabihin sayo lahat pero eto na siguro yung perfect timing.
Sobra kong naappreciate lahat ng ginawa mo at ikaw bilang tao. Palaban ka, masalita kang tao, pero deep inside caring ka talaga kaya maraming nagmamahal sayo.
Bilang ate mo, (na mas maliit sayo) ang sasabihin ko lang e sa susunod na magmamahal ka, alagaan na ang puso. Marami na akong heartache na pinagdaanan kaya take it from me, magtira ka para sa sarili mo. Alam ko naman na alam mo yan. pero wag ka rin masyadong negative te. Minsan naoover ka naman sa pagiging negative about sa love. Tulad ng lagi kong sinasabi, alisin ang inner noise :)
So ayan, papunta narin ako sa inyo ngayon. Sana di mo muna to basahin para di naman ako mahiya bilang alam ko na ayaw mo ng kadramahan. Kailangan ko magdrama ngayon para malaman mong love kita. Ingat ka. Magkita pa sana tayo someday. Naiiyak ako pero di ko iiyak dahil alam kong si Madz ka at di mo gusto yan hahaha.
Ayun lang lagi mo tatandaan na if you need someone, andito lang ako. Sabi ko nga things may have turned bitter between me and your sister pero yung bond na nabuo ko with you hindi na maalis sakin yun kahit na balibaligtarin pa yung mundo. Isa ka sa mga pinagpapasalamat ko na bunga ng past relationship ko and of course si Dioh. Love ko kayong dalawa. At Sizzie kita forever. Okay?
O siya. Mahaba narin ito masyado. Sana na,appreciate mo ang mini trip down memory lane ko. Oo mini palang yan. Kahit ilang months lang tayo tunay na nagkasama, sobrang dami para sa akin ng memories na yun. Naiisip ko nga pagnalala ko yung dark days ko last year kayo ni Dioh yung laging nasa picture. Ikaw nga lang madalas yung tahimik pero nandiyan. :) Salamat ulit ha. Basta salamat salamat salamat at walang humpay na salamat. Sorry din sa mga times na may di ako nagawang maganda sa iyo. Pero Just like you,at the end of the day, mas nananaig yung friendship natin. Yan punta na talaga ako sa bahay niyo :)
Take care, Sizzie. Have a safe trip. Au revoir.
Love,
Sizzie
Hi hon,
Dito nalang kita kakausapin, dahil for some reason, I can’t express myself ng bongga when we are talking. Magpapakacheesy lang ako ng konti. Konti lang so wag ka magexpect haha.
I just want to thank you for everything. If girlfriend ko ang sarili ko, I would have given up na dahil napakarami kong issues sa katawan haha. So thank you for always understanding me. Please don’t get tired listening sa mga stories ko… sa mga kaemohan ko about life and my realizations. Ewan ko ba lately, I’m so sentimental and yes, emotional. But thanks cause I feel that you’re listening and I can also see the effort to make me feel better. And what’s great is you never failed to do so. Konting kausapin mo lang si “bibe” natatawa na ako.
There are times na pag di tayo magkasama ang dami dami kong nafefeel na kung ano ano about my life, friends, family, work… pero di ko nababanggit sayo. Maybe it’s because when you’re around, I forget about all of them. Saka mas gusto ko ienjoy yung moment na kasama ka. Ayokong iispoil :) So, pagbigyan mo na ako pag gusto ko ng long talks that don’t involve us, it means, bothered na talaga ako.
Naisip ko nga, with all the stuff happening to me, I wouldn’t be smiling na kung wala ka. Super ko naeenjoy pag magkasama tayo and lagi ako nagkakaron ng moment na gusto kong sabihin sayo na mahal na mahal kita. Basta mahal kita at salamat. Thanks din sa mga pagkunsinte sakin sa mga paglabas labas ko.
Makacut muna to kasi si Debbie at Art e nandidito haha. Di ako makapagdrama. :) Binlog ko pa no? Why? Cause I’m proud that I’m in love with you! :)
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
I can’t wait to see you!
You’re the best thing in my life right now.
I never really enjoyed walking. So it’s surprises me that I’ve been asking people to walk with me lately. What’s up with that? Not that I’m broke… oh well, I’m sort of. But I’m sure it’s not about that, it’s more of about me beginning to change the way I think about things.
Is this because I’m turning a year older in less than a week? Is this a part of me growing old? All of a sudden, I’m becoming more optimistic. I’m starting to appreciate the things that surrounds me, and these include the things I see along the long walks that I’ve been taking. If you know me, you know that I’m the kind of girl who takes a cab even if the place I’m going to is just a few blocks away.
Well, I like this change. I realized that when I walk, either alone or with a friend, I get to discover new things about me, or about the person who’s walking with me. You can actually have good conversations while walking and! You won’t even notice how long you have walked. You also get to enjoy looking at the passersby. Some are happy holding hands with their partner, some are frowning for whatever reason, some are just too loud talking with their friends, some are busy on their mobile phones, etc.
Just tonight, while passing the road of Connecticut alone, I thought about all the people I met through my journey. I’m missing so many of them. I failed to keep in touch. I get to speak to some of them but it feels like we don’t get enough time to spend with each other. It’s always limited to a day, at least once in two months, that I get to meet up with them. It’s a good thing there are still some that I get to see often. But I still miss them all.
I’m becoming more and more sentimental for the past days, I feel that we are one by one going to different directions. I guess it’s a part of life. I wish I get a chance to walk with them. Long walk for a longer time… That could be a good gift for my 23rd birthday. :) I’d introduce them to the one that’s holding my heart right now, I’d tell them that yes, here I am again, but you know me, I don’t give up on love. I’d tell them all the things they missed and listen to their stories as well. I’m sure we’ll have good laughs, as always.
Happiness is a state of mind.
The truth is, happiness comes from within. It’s starts with fully accepting what situation you are in, knowing where exactly you want to go, and deciding to enjoy every moment along the way.
You learn to be happy when you feel that you have enough time, or love, or whatever it is. Just the mere feeling of having enough of everything indeed makes you have enough of everything.
People think that you have to search happiness or work for it. But the real deal is simple: You have to choose to be happy to ACTUALLY be happy. Our common mistake is that we tell ourselves that we will “one day” be happy. Stop focusing on that because when we do, we will never achieve real happiness. Why? Because we push ourselves too hard on the idea of our future happiness. We fail to smell the roses along the way.
If starting today you choose to be happy, you will be more productive on the days ahead of you. And far more likely, you will achieve those things which the everything-seekers are seeking.
Set every little thing that bugs your mind behind. You’ll be able to solve them in the future anyway. Don’t overthink. It kills the time that you should be spending happily. Trust me, I’m an overthinker and it never got me anywhere. Feel the positive vibes. Acknowledge the negative ones but never give too much of your time for them. And I’m sure when you clear your head you’ll see that there are far too many reasons to be happy.
Think about the good in you, the friends that you have, the love that you’ve found, the family that you got, the joy in every get togethers, the short but sweet hellos, the things you achieved, the little things you can buy with the few coins left in your pocket, the long walks with good friends, the heartbreaks you survived, the sunsets and sunrise, those waking moments you want to repeat, the bliss of seeing green grasses and colorful flowers, the breathe of fresh air, and the many other things that you’ll discover as you grow.
Be happy. Not tomorrow, but TODAY! :)
PS: And you, Miel. You’re my happiness. I love you more than I love looking at the clouds during summer days and more than I love laying under a starry night sky. And oh, yeah! More than chocolate cakes!
GV FRIDAY PEOPLE!
“There will be times, we’ll try and give it up, bursting at the seams, no doubt, we’ll almost fall apart, then burn to pieces, so watch them turn to dust. But NOTHING will ever taint us. ♥ I won’t go, I can’t do it on my own, If this ain’t love, then what is? I’m willing to take the risk.”
- I like this part :) and I love Adele. ♥ When she sings, it’s always heartfelt.
Britney Spears - Toxic
↳With a taste of your lips I’m on a ride…
I used to have that body! HAHA di rin!
I LOVE BRITNEEEEY :)
(via britneyspears)
I browsed all my albums sa FB and my, things have changed. Iba ibang tao nakilala, iba ibang tao di ko na nakakasama. Mabigat yung feeling while I was looking at the pics, pero nakangiti ako. Bittersweet, indeed. Miss ko na lahat kayo. Sana makabonding ko lahat kayo soon. Haaay. :)
Sa inyong minsan kong minahal, sana masaya na kayo. Hindi ko alam kung nasabi ko na pero gusto kong ipagpasalamat yung mga oras na pinagsamahan natin. Natuto ako magmahal, mangunawa, at magalaga ng bukod sa sarili ko. Natuto kong maglaan ng oras sa pagmamahal. Sobrang dami ko natutunan at ngayon ko lang naisip na napakalaking bagay ang nagawa niyo sa buhay ko. Ngayon may kanya kanya na tayo, sana maranasan natin yung tama para sa atin.
Sa mga kaibigan ko. Sa mga naging tapat at hindi tapat. Tinuruan niyo din ako ng maraming bagay. Yung iba nakakasama ko pa, yung iba malayo na. Yung iba naman pilit ko ng binura. Sana makasama ko kayo lahat. Sana tumawa uli tayo tulad ng pagtawa natin noong mga panahong simple pa ang lahat. Maraming salamat mga kaibigan.
Kay miel, pipilitin kong sayo gawin lahat ng natutunan ko. Lahat ng pagkakamali ko noon, pilit kong babaguhin. Sana ikaw na. Sana ikaw na yung magiging consistent na tao na kasama ko sa mga susunod pang albums ng buhay ko. Sana hanggang sa panahong di ko na kayang iopen ang facebook ko, sana ikaw at ako ang last upload ko. Mahal kita. Salamat sa pagbukas ng bagong kabanata sa buhay ko. Salamat sa pagintindi mo sa lahat ng kamalian ko at kung may mga panahong di maganda ang naparamdam ko sayo. Salamat din sa pangakong habambuhay.
Sorry taglish. These emotions suddenly hit me and I need to type them all down. :) God bless us all. God bless our next chapters. GV Friday.
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noun: smor·gas·bore·ga·sm
1. A collection containing a variety of sorts of boring things.
I write about my pain, joy, and confusion. I don't care how many people I move through my writings but I know there would be some. The sole purpose of this blog is not for me to have a space to vent, but to serve as a reminder to those who are in the same point that I am in: You are not alone.
When all else fails, just take a deep breath. You'll feel alive again.
Breathe!
